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nepsa77
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Country: United States
State: Washington
Birthday: 11/29/1981
Gender: Female
Expertise: Being unemployed and between jobs. *sigh* Oh, and being BORED!!
Occupation: Unemployed/Between Jobs
Industry: Education/Research
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Member Since:
8/27/2002
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| Time heals all - been exactly a month since "all that bad stuff
happened" and I feel more human than I have in weeks. It doesn't
feel like it's been a month; it feels like it's been 10 years.
I'm thankful for the friends and family who helped me through and were
there for me and a little more than resentful towards those who didn't
and weren't. They don't even know who they are. I need to
move past that. Hopefully that's all part of healing too.
I also feel resentful of the fact that we have not only lost a friend
but have permanently lost our "couple friends." Maybe that's
because we've never had a set of couple friends before. It was
always us and Dlo, us and Zach, or, lately, us and Ed. But it was
us and Ed with the notion that she was coming home and it would soon be
'us and them' again. I'm not trying to say that we like Ed better
when he was a them, but it was part of who he is to us. Ed and
Laura. We didn't miss a weekend of going out with them from
December to the end of March. 17 weekends - not very long in the
grand scheme of things, but long enough to impact your life. We
have been hanging out with another couple more and more often, and I
find myself shutting down and not wanting to open up. Especially towards the
wife - I just don't want new couple friends yet.
For the first time in a long time I feel good to be me. I feel
like Dave and I are in a good place in our relationship. I feel
talented again - maybe not ambitious, but special and valued.
Band started up again, and it is good to be a big fish in a little
pond. I get to see Lara Murcin (lab friend who just had a baby
end of July so hasn't been to work) every Monday night and that's
always nice. My friend Patty started playing intramural soccer at
Ft. Lewis and encouraged me to come out and at least run with
them. I was invited to play for the team at the first
practice! I wasn't expecting to actually get to play, I was
looking for a reason to get off the couch and have someone else yell at
me to do laps, push ups and sit ups. I am still sore from the 3hr
practice we had friday night, but I feel incredibly better than I have
in weeks for having my ass kicked! It reminds me that I'm better
than I've been letting myself be. It feels SO good!
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| People surprise you every day - Terri called me today and apologized, unprompted, for what she said yesterday! I had let it go, but I was very grateful. 
Watched Mr. Rogers today for the first time in who knows when - realized that there are no quality childrens shows any more and that all you really need to know to make it through life is contained in those episodes...
Also watched Dirty Dancing - is there any girl in the world who doesn't want to be Baby when she watches that movie?? | | |
| Mom is going to freak out. I just bought plane tickets for me and Dave to come home and we're travelling at different times. Dave will be coming home July 21st through the 31st. I'll stay here and leave the 25th of July and be home in SEA on August 8th. Aunt Tammy will have her baby sometime the first week in August and I will get to be at my family reunion August 6th! Mom has a hard time with Dave and I taking separate vacations, but there was no way I could stay 18 days at home (July 21st through Aug 8th)! I am sad to not be travelling with Dave, but we've got limitations that we have to work around. His block leave is over on the 31st of July, so he HAD to be home then and he wanted to take at least 9 days to spend time at home. He is going home over 4th of July to see some friends and I am honestly a little jealous, but I know that I'll either be miserable with him (his friends are jerks sometimes) or without him. It's a coin toss - misery without him is cheaper!! haha
So there's our latest update! I'm excited about going home - wish it were sooner! | | |
| New Job! New Job! New Job!
Well, unfortunately it's not at a biotech company, but we're working on that. I think I will like working at the Limited - simply because of the awesome discount!
This week I've got to get to the lab and get my transformations done on my new plasmids and check the baby plants for new transformants. | | |
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